Sunday 16 October 2016

"Your Brain on Food"

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You are what you eat. You know that saying. Your are only as healthy as what you put into your body. We often equate the strong and virtuous of us with the ones making 'healthy choices'. The athletic-looking person in their workout gear drinking a smoothie. Or the mom in the grocery store only buying organic produce and natural foods for her children. We admire this.

Conversely, we see an overweight person with a grocery cart full of processed foods and we judge. We do. I would wager that almost all of us do. Society has a bias about health. Many biases, in fact.

Today is the first day of the Welfare Food Challenge here in Metro Vancouver. I have signed up to live on an $18 food budget for the week of October 16th to the 22nd. As part of this challenge participants cannot accept charity, free food or eat food that is already in their fridge or cupboards. Why $18 and why did I choose to participate? People who live in poverty in British Columbia and receive welfare subsist on a weekly food budget of $18 per person. B.C. is the only province without a poverty reduction plan. We are also the province with the most wealth inequity in Canada; Vancouver is home to the poorest and the richest neighborhoods our country.

The subject of poverty and welfare is a touchy one. Many believe that people on welfare are lazy and should just get a job. Others believe that people on welfare are taking advantage of the system. I am sure that sometimes this is the case. The face of poverty, however, is not what we think it is. Poverty impacts those already most marginalized in our communities: Aboriginal people, people with disabilities and mental health disorders, new immigrants/refugees, and single moms (who are employed) and their children. Yes, it's true - you do not have to be unemployed to live in poverty. It's a tragedy that in a developed nation in 2016 that this is the reality for so many.

This all makes me sad and angry. So I signed up to participate in the challenge. If you want to see change then you need to participate in that change. I spent two weeks considering my grocery list and scouting out spots where I could get the best deals (Dollar Tree and Superstore, for the record). I began my shopping. And I talked about it. I talked about it a lot - with fellow challenge participants, with colleagues, family and on social media. Here's the photo that I took of the food that I had purchased as of the middle of last week, with $5 left in my budget.

The photo is in black and white for a reason: the diet lacks colour. What it has in abundance are carbohydrates, sodium (!) and refined sugar. When I had to decide between eating healthy for a week (whole foods) and feeling full, I chose feeling full. But this photo caused me to pause. It also raised a red flag for some people close to me. 

Two people asked me, based on my continuing challenges with depression and anxiety, if it is wise for me to be participating in this challenge. Um, good point. I was getting caught up in advocating for an incredibly important topic and forgetting about my daily commitment (and battle) to maintain my own mental and physical health. According to the Harvard Health Publications, "Multiple studies have found a correlation between a diet high in refined sugars and impaired brain function - and even worsening symptoms of mood disorders, such as depression." I already know this. I also know that I need to put the brakes on. So no Welfare Food Challenge for me this year.

There are no winners when it comes to poverty and food insecurity. The fact that poverty affects those already most challenged in society makes it that much worse. I don't actually need to eat poorly for a week to understand the impact that it has on one's body and mind - I, and the rest of society, just need to be more aware that many of us are walking a challenging path. What I have learned in the past few weeks as I prepared for the challenge is to be more aware of my own privilege and to be less judgemental about those around me. Maybe that person who is buying the processed food at the grocery story is doing so because that is what they can afford. Maybe they are simply doing the best that they can with what they have.

As you enjoy your Sunday brunch out today or even a simple cup of coffee (a luxury to many) consider this: how the food that you put in your body can impact your overall health and well being. Then, consider what food security and poverty mean to the health and well being of our communities overall. Is a healthy body and mind a privilege for only a few?

KB xo

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  1. I read this post this morning and it has been sitting with me all day. I think Vancouver has an added problem that a lot of other cities don't have and that is the temperate weather. One of my early jobs was to work on a project with street youth (and anyone else) in inner city Edmonton. The project went from June to November. By the time November came nearly everyone we had been working with was gone to Vancouver for the winter. And really, it's one thing to be homeless, it's a whole other thing to be homeless in January when it is somewhere between -5 and -35, so you can't blame them. It does add to the vulnerable population of Vancouver though.

    I am always amazed at how much food costs me and I really wonder how people manage. I think your story and picture are very telling, barely is the answer. In my view by thinking about the challenge and telling your story you are a strong advocate, even if your own health prevents from taking the challenge.

  2. As a fellow mental illness survivor, I wanted to say that it was wise to put the brakes on the challenge, even though I know how much you wanted to do it.
    When I was living in BC, I was struggling with extreme poverty for quite some time. As a teenager, our family lived on welfare for a little while after my parents separated. I remember being embarrassed at school for wearing second hand clothing and being picked on by other kids. The worst was Christmas time, when our class was doing the Adopt A Family campaign to sponsor a poor family for the holiday.. I had to secretly go up to my teacher after class and fight tears as I told her that my family was one of the ones being sponsored in that program..

    Fast forward to adulthood in my late 20s, I became so disabled I had to stop working. My prognosis was poor, but despite this and all the medical documentation, my disability benefits were ripped away from me. I was forced to survive on almost nothing, and it became a life-threatening situation. I cannot begin to tell you the amount of despair and hopelessness I felt during this time. I had to ask people for money so that I could eat, which was difficult because I could never pay them back. I moved back in with my mom, and felt so guilty because although her and my stepdad work full time at decent jobs, their rent consumed half of their income and left them with very little to support me.

    As you probably know, good food is one of the basics of self care. Self care is so important for people like us to just get through the day when that dark cloud of depression and anxiety looms over us. Even if it were just a week of depriving oneself of this, it could be dangerous. I'm glad you made the call of knowing that this wasn't healthy for you, despite how much you were looking forward to it.

    I want to thank you for supporting this cause. More people need to know about it, and talking about it raises the awareness that we need. Hopefully one day, our voices are heard and poverty in BC can come to an end.

  3. I think this is a great endeavour! I have struggled with depression for many years (I just turned 60 in October). You have a great blog, and I really enjoyed this post. Thank you so much for sharing, and warm greetings from Montreal, Canada. Happy New Year!

  4. I think this is a great endeavour! I have struggled with depression for many years (I just turned 60 in October). You have a great blog, and I really enjoyed this post. Thank you so much for sharing, and warm greetings from Montreal, Canada. Happy New Year!


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